"all i can do is do"

19 july: i'm watching you all like you're fish behind glass. i feel like i am seeing things that i should not be seeing. watching you move

last night i got out of my dark bed and turned on the light and sat up for a couple of hours before going to sleep. whenever i have a problem or something to think about i never get to sleep unless i consider it in some way first because there is no hope of sleep unless that's done. i hate having irrational worries and fears.

certain people in my life seem to have a patronizing tone when speaking to me

today i made tea with too much sugar and honey and got a headache after doing a lot of chores. i realized that i love vaccuuming and doing laundry.